Hi Boys,
This continues to be a tough year for Papa & Nana. We both miss you so much and it's easy to get sad and depressed because we're not allowed to see you.
However, even though three years have passed since I got to be with you, you are still able to make me smile and laugh and be happy with the memories of you.
I'm going to try to figure out how to send a video that includes the very last time we got to be together. The first part of the video was when I took you to Toys 'R Us for your Birthday "Shopping Spree". It was such a joy to follow you around the store and watch you interact and play with each other.
There's video of us playing at your house as well as some video in the bouncy house. Nana & I took you there more times than we can count. You loved it there. We were there so often that the owner knew the four of us by name!
The last part of the video is the very last day I got to see you. I took you bowling...you LOVED to go bowling! I remember it like it was last week. I'm SOOOO glad that I took this video.
I've said it so many times and I'll say it so many more as I continue to write you. I love you. You both were the absolute joy of my life and there are no words to express how much I miss you and think about you EVERY SINGLE DAY.
I've been depressed and discouraged this past year and the feeling that I may never see you again is more than I can bear. Looking at pictures and videos with you both is all that really keeps me going sometimes.
I love you Jack. I love you Charlie. I hope you are happy and healthy. I also hope that by some miracle your memory of me hasn't faded away with time.
Love forever and ever, Papa
