Well, I just had my 64th Birthday a couple of weeks ago. But much more important than that is that today you are 10 years old, Jack! I absolutely can't believe that it's been 3-1/2 years since I've seen you. At that time you were talking about how you're grown up and all the things you can do since you were 6-1/2 years old! I can only begin to imagine what you are up to now that you're 10!
I would give anything to be able to be with you and Charlie. I miss you so very much that it hurts. I still dream about you and think of you many times each day. I never knew that I could miss anyone as much as I miss you and Charlie.
Up until October of 2018 I always knew exactly what was going on with you and what you liked and didn't like and your favorite games and TV shows and what your favorite foods were. With each passing month and year I'm less and less aware of who you are now. If you're reading this, you might get the feeling that I barely know you since I talk more about who you were to me and less about who you are now.
I guess that's to be expected with the situation being what it is. I'm very aware of that and it makes me all the sadder thinking that the chasm between us grows wider every year. As I've said so many times before, my greatest wish is that someday I'll be able to see you again and grow close to you like I was in the past.
I miss you and I love you so very much. Happy Birthday, Jack!
Love, Papa
